Doctor Doctor, we have nothing in our pockets
we continue, we have nothing left to offer


Ok, so I talk to girls I have never met online. Correction, I have met them, just not in any sort of detail, that is to say I haven't really spoken to them much in person. IM is a wonderful way of meeting girls. Or at least meeting people. Radiohead was right.

I'm trying to write a play with Chris F. Hope that goes well. So far it's really promising, but my email is being a bitch and a half, so it may be sidetracked. Grumble.

Going to Japan on June 13th, staying in Tokyo for a day or two, then out to the country. I'd like to say I'm excited, but right now it seems sort of abstract and hard to comprehend. I think once I'm actually counting down to the departure, as in minutes, I will be psyched. Then I'll fly for about half a day, and not be psyched. Then we'll land and it will all be good. I really do want to see this place. Where the sky is like static on an empty channel.

Friends are a good thing to have, once you remember them. Trevor is in Africa, Kenya is my guess. Crazy. He's studying tribal drumming. How cool is that? Mark is in his apartment as is Mike. John and I are the only ones left in Ridgefield as of now. How have we killed the time? Warhammer. That and going to a really lame party, one infested with 18 year olds acting all tough. But that was fun, as we tore them down. The cops showed up, and some fights broke out, it would appear. Also witnessed a beer pong game go for an hour, which must be a record. Kid's talk so much trash and co-opt cultures these days.

I keep thinking of my thesis. If the horse thing falls through, then I'm going to do an ethnography of a high school, namely places within it. Apply DeCerteau's theory of space to a cafeteria or something like that, document the cliques and the such and how they appropriate their spaces. I think that would be a little more typical, but hella fun. God, I'm a nerd.

And on the second day, there was nothing else left at all.

Been watching "Stop Making Sense" too much. That's right. Got the DVD during finals week, and I've watched it a good 10 times. I want to dance like David Byrne. How fucked up, eh?


And in a great big room, and that's the way we live.

-ccm

Damn.
I have a monster english paper to do, limited time due to movie making, and what stands in my way the most? The lack of a topic. Everything that I think of is either being done by others, or not relevant. It's starting to get to the point where I am losing hope in this project. I need to talk about intertextuality, but how? How do I work it in?

Maybe I've got it.

Ok. In both The Hours the movie as well as the book and HoD and Apoc Now the climaxes are altered significantly. What does this mean? Why was it done? Is it because of the medium, or is it to evoke a different sort of emotion from the audience, change the ending for the new time that the work will exist in?

That probably won't work either. This whole intertext thing blows my mind...I'm really stuck.

Paper topic the first: a paper comparing dalloway to the hours to the movie the hours and how and why particular scenes were changer to evoke certain emotions.

that one got shot down. Grr. Stuck like a truck in some muck. It's good to think it out in one form or another though.

Did I mention that this is 15 pages and due on friday by 3 pm?

Girls. Who knows how they work. You see one you like walking down the street and you want to say, "You are beautiful. I want to know everything about you, where you are from and what your deepest thoughts are on!", but you can't. It just doesn't work that way. I'm asking the Piya about this. Phil says I should date her. Phil says a lot of things. I wonder about perception and honestly how I look in other people's eyes. To wonder about their gaze is to wonder about nothing, and to be wasting precious time. I think I look pretty good these days, and that's that.

But to them? Who knows?
They're the girls, the others, and perhaps a few gay men, if I'm in top form...
am I ever in top form?
Tip top shape, condition, mentally and otherwise?
Psh.
Never.

I like it that way. There's is really nothing wrong with being who you are, unless evil people are looking for you. IN that case, be someone else, to avoid the bad guys. It's better for everyone that way. Unless you're the bad guy. Touche? You know it. But hey, if you're the bad guy, be yourself, and maybe you won't be so bad in the end...Of course maybe you'll be in prison, or dead.

Or if you're really good you'll take over the world. Just remember what I said when you do. And pay me for it. Lot's of money and maybe some caviar...Love that stuff.

-ccm

HAHAHAHAHA!

POST!

Ok, so life goes on, things have been going on. Thesis next year.
I'm talking to Piya and Josh online right now. It's early in the morning and I am neglecting my Anthro outline. Oh well. That's why there are mornings.

I need more time on my 2x tales paper.
I miss driving...PEOPLE INSANE!

I'm in movies, more than you know.
I'm I'm I'm
Done with this post.

-ccm